OPEN LETTER TO THE BETSI CADWALADR UNIVERSITY HEALTH BOARD - WEDNESDAY 2ND JULY 2025

I come full circle to where it all started. All it took, all it ever needed, was for me to be seen as worthy of dignity and care in the first place. Who would have thought that being part of a system designed to bring well-being and support could instead drive me to my most horrendous breakdown?

A system full of sadists and covert narcissists, deriving pleasure from wielding control and power over the vulnerable. Here I was, dragged back into the same karmic cycle this year by a doctor hell bent on stigmatising me, determined to deny me care and perpetuate my suffering.

I have extracted myself from this broken system. Though the law binds me to a GP, I hereby declare myself dead to the medical grid. All pending medical appointments are cancelled. I become a hollow shell, distant and detached from the institution that preaches well-being yet delivers slow death.

Retraumatisation kills. It is time to be honest. This system was never built for people like me. You do not see us as worthy of care. You do not see me as human. I cannot partake in your false sense of health.

I declare a haunting withdrawal where my resonance serves as the highest frequency of mirroring. Every day you will be confronted with the reality of what you have done. And you will not shake this haunting feeling until you have made everything right.

This is my special measure for you, and it is sealed as a cosmic mandate.

Let the medical grid scramble. Let its illusions fall away. My spirit remains intact, radiant beyond your broken structures.

This letter is a cosmic mandate. May this system be paid according to what it has done.

 Mayowa Anthea Adebiyi: 29.08.1988

The Book of Life

Haunting Withdrawal Sealed: Betsi Cadwaladr University Health Board, 2nd July 2025